Between dream and reality

from Pain my heart suffers
help me to decide or let the fate discover
by despair I am led
of which destiny himself away fled
really hard I am trying
myself to realize
is it real or a dream
I am lost
Perhaps the dream what is real
And reality is the dream
My heart is dying and my mind crying
Tell me the truth and relieve my soul
Living not is what I feel
Perhaps the dream what is real
Relieve my soul before I lose it all

I'm not gonna feel sad or scared
They're grown-up criminals
but this is my neighborhood
and this is my house.
No matter how old they are,
no matter how big they are
they can't beat me here
They can't beat me at home